fuck.

fuck mother fucking fuck fucking fuckface full of fucking fuck. to the fuckest extent.
thats how hunger makes me feel.

today, i was supposed to get some things done buuut the pot won this round, so i'm stimed up and unproductive. ah well, you win some you lose some. i mean all i have to do is throw trash in a bag and i'll be 50% of the way there. but, i sit on my ass, staring at the screen of my computer, knowing that pot and reading interesting things will always beat chores.. god i need a maid.. or a girlfriend? siiiike

to my number 1 fan, good looks on the suggestion.. not sure how to get ahold of some of that but if it's not some of that non-drowsy dexatrim bullshit, i'd be solid.. as for your question about where i find these drugs.. well i'm prescribed them by a doctor and i see an APRN regularly for monitoring.. i'm not taking them for fun.. it's cuz i dont want to go crazy anymore.. and life's a lot better on a level field.. the vyvanse really is for a.d.d., lexapro for depression and klono for anxiety both caused by side effects of bipolar, which i take seroquel for. ya follow? =P

it's lightninging here. thats a word, by the way. i like the stormy weather, reminds me that if i were outside at this moment i could be zapped.. im just that kind of electric kinda guy.. hope it doesn't ruin my network tho.. fucking electrons and their communist regieme.. wow listen to it rumble.. thuder is kinky.. funny how there are more fire trucks out when it's raining? you figure the rain would help. lazy rain.. weather in general is lazy, always falling all over the place like a slob

sometimes i wish i could lock all the food away in an uncrackable safe that i could never find the combination to.. lock it up so i can't get to it, then i'll be fine.. but if i know the combo, forget it.. i'm like a raccoon with no self-control.. crack that bitch open like a clam in the mud. the shame.

i'm hot. i have only a few food items remaining. some cans of tuna fish, 2 bowls of miso noodle soup from trader joes, some rotting fruit, but a bunch of frozen things.. if anyone is interested in relieving me of this evil food, please by all means, comment. take 3 bags of frozen potatoes (crinkle fries, steak fries, and tater tots, respectively) and win a free bad of frozen steamed corn.. it's a win win.. who doesn't like corn and potatoes? well i know one person.. me. take them all

i don't believe in god but its a really convenient curse word. god damnit. fuck everything.

p.s. scanner ordered, paperless adventure begins Wednesday night. the cleansing project 3.0 begins shortly