i must preface this post with a warning to all you copy monkeys out there that see and then do. or in this case, read and then do. don't do what i do. this is merely a window into my fucked up psyche and a place that i will vent a bit. of course u know i say this out of anger and encourage anyone who is having problems of their own to take it out on food, but i don't want any fucking arrest warrants issued in my name for being the next Biggs inspirer, ya dig? Don't keel over and blame me.
Anyhow, I've decided to punish myself for a situation that in all sane thinking is not my fault. however, after reading the short introduction, you will clearly see why this has got to be my fault and only repairable by starvation.
had a shitty friday.. met this really awesome girl, we were both really into each other.. lying together on my sofa.. she takes 1 hit of the bowl, freaks out and leaves.. she goes 'dont lose my number, im sorry.. im sorry' all this shit
naturally hasn't answered a call, text or anything since so my hearts kinda broke.. first girl i've had interest in in months.
i still can't figure it out and it's driving me crazy.. i just slept through saturday bc i was so bummed
she's like my double.. same interests, crazies everything
i wasnt tryin to mess around with her or anything. i kept telling her no bc i have a bad habit of fuckin a girl on a first date and then never calling her again, and i was feeling this chick..
and then poof.
im still hella bummed. ah well whatever
she told me she was single - divorced, ironically. she told me i looked perfect and didnt need to lose any weight when that whole topic came up (often does when i don't have a lot of food in the house and people inquire why)
ive never had a female just up and bounce.. not after trying to get in my pants the whole fkin night wtf
behave and lose. this experience will further teach me to use sex as a manipulation tool yay! <3
so, because it must obviously be because i did something wrong, or am too fat to deserve such a beautiful girl, i will not eat for many days.
day 2 going smoothly.
im not even watching the scale, it's not about that. it's about letting things get out of hand. and to think i'd already lost like 10 lbs since my last blog post just by switching to a fruit diet for awhile. and now look what happened?
no food ever.
bye friends
Sunday, November 30, 2008
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due to the fact that you eat WAY less than the normal person, i think you should seek treatment for this disorder, because it is in fact a "disorder" it is bringing you down metally and physically dispite what you may think. this is AMERICA, everyone is fat. and if you are at an average weight then that is incredible compared to most people. dont be so hard on yourself, try a healthy diet with exercise and it can make a world of a difference.
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