step 2: find your comfort

i promised the next entry would be helpful. so here the fuck it is.

PROTIP: want an interesting and highly effective appetite suppressant?

answer: acid. yep... LSD. preferably high doses of it.*

* causes loss of sleep which marijuana helps with though may cause munchies for the weak

you heard me right.. there are certain items i've neglected to mention as excellent hunger suppressants. either legal and/or addictive reasons have caused me to censor these tips, but fuck censorship.. even on myself.

items that eliminate your hunger:
1. cocaine
2. crack cocaine
3. lsd
4. large doses of coffee
5. methamphetamine
6. amphetamines / stimulants such as ritilin / adderall / stratera
7. prozac (causes sexual side effects in some people; like me)
8. smoking an entire pack of cigarettes
9. marijuana (ONLY if you have trained the munchies away)
10. eating with your shirt off to remind you what a slob you are

im not going to fucking hide this shit anymore.. im not embarrassed of who i am. i just don't feel like explaining myself to everyone i meet. this gives me anonymity and a great place to vent my anger about food. ive been like this for so so so long that i can't, don't, and won't choose another way..

people LOVE to tell me how dangerous it is to my health, but um, i feel healthier now than i have ever before in my life.

todays monday. day 1 of the fast. i hope i don't fail. its so hard once the pill kicks in later.. please someone suggest another great appetite suppressant because items 3, 4, 8, 9, and 10 are the only items i enjoy. the rest are gay, and some i haven't tried (and wont, like meth.. or crack) but that's just me.. if u already got a habit then use it in your favor, ya dig?

here's a little present to my loyal fans. marvin gaye - inner city blues a great track. i've been playing it for 3 weeks in my car.

to you hip hop fans, check this dope stream i found from some cat named mcfisherprice from connecticut.. he's good.. http://www.myspace.com/mcfisherprice is his myspace address but his live stream is: http://djbooth.serverroom.us:4846/listen.pls and you can usually catch it on in the evenings..

k more to come as soon as i catch a free minute.

i'm having the word "eat." tattooed onto my right wrist (minus the quotes) because i need to remember to eat but i choose not to. you see the paradox?

step 1: find your reason

i realize i'm not the most responsible when it comes to this blog. sometimes i just want to starve in peace and then i remember that other people enjoy it, too. im currently listening to some marvin gaye and it helps a lot..
p.s. if anyone likes hip hop and r&b, please feel free to tune into my live shoutcast stream anytime. Winamp (available @ http://www.winamp.com for free) is the best program to use but i think itunes and windows media player works too..
anyhow, load up winamp, hit CTRL + L and then paste in the following address:

http://djbooth.serverroom.us:4846/listen.pls

you can also try just clicking the above link to see if it'll automatically load. i DJ mostly at night in the evenings (7pm - 10/11pm EST) so if you tune in and it's not broadcasting, just wait till night fall and smoke some chronic to the classic era gold.

so here's the deal...
ive been watching a shitload of episodes of Intervention lately.. im really glad i never developed the urge to purge, because that frankly makes me a bit nauceous (not to be cute). but i got my own demons to deal with.

and so i start over. today i havent eaten anything and i need to continue this for the foreseeable future. somewhere along the line i accepted sugar back into my life and that is such a fucking sign of weakness.

fuck you and your sugar byproducts

i need to find a girl and quick.. only like 20 lbs to lose this time (the same 20 i've been battling with for 6 months now).. its the caving and the close proximity to convience (domino's pizza delivery, Donut Delight open 24/7, as is the convenience store that stocks my favorite lays baked chips and Ben & Jerry's.. its tough on me

but i ate all my remaining food last night, and hopefully my laziness will overpower my impulses to drive out and binge on sugar like i do a lot.

this blog has taken a strange turn to the blog side more than the How To Guide. i apologize, sometimes life absorbs us.. i will be returning this guide to it's regularly scheduled programming for the next post. after all, this is where i jot my thoughts in hopes of helping other e.d. crazies out there..

i love you fans, thanks for reading and i'm always always always on your side.. fuck everyone else, we know what's attractive and we won't settle for anything less.

p.s. youtube: intervention (and then start watching some episodes) and your world view might change a little, too